Cross Purpose

Cross Purpose:

A response to George Herbert’s “Redemption”

At Heaven’s manor’s door I stood and knocked
to ask my Lord about this mystery.
I hoped my loving Lord would help me see
how, from my sin, my spirit is unlocked.

“My cross is where your condemnation ends,
so you can view your past without despair,
and, freed from Satan’s sway, you can repair
relationships and start to make amends.”

It seems I want to have a better past
with facts that are much less unsettling.
I want my Savior’s precious blood to bring
me far from those regrets which hold me fast.

“My child,” my Lord said,  “that can never be.
Accept your past, and know you live with Me.”


“The peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall
keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”
– Philippians 4:7 KJV


The Greek and Hebrew words term translated as “sin” both literally are the archery term meaning “missing the mark”[1].   It is not the error that hurts me the most, but rather the impact on the person whom I have hurt, along with its effect on our relationship (which is changed even though my victim may have forgiven me).  This makes it difficult to be fully present when reconciling with my victims while I am at the same time feeling wracked with guilt.  How does redemption change my relationship with the fact of what I have done?  I wrote this sonnet as I reflected on this question.

I like the sonnet as a way to structure thought: the form classically begins with contemplation of an issue (“the argument”) and then moves on to proposing how the issue might be addressed (“the resolution”) [2].

[1] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hamartia#In_Christian_theology
[2] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sonnet#Petrarchan_sonnet

 

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